the two saddest words - "I'm sorry"

my 3 weeks break. more photos are in facebook.

 

the very first day i arrived.

 

Dumpling Festival.

 

Beach Day.

i cut my hair. haha!

 

Happy father's day to my mighty dad. went to Chiangmai to have dinner just now... 真的是又辣又热有爽！forgot to take pic *alamak*

 

time flies really fast,

exactly 1 year i've been studying in Melbourne.

dad came into my room just now and remind me again that he wanted me to come back right after i graduate. aihhh.. he didn't want me to work at Aus, cuz he said he will be missing me so badly like now.. my tears almost dropped out on the spot..

 

but what i thought was, since i already plan to spend 3 years there why not take mai PR and earn back those si ang mo de money. then i'll back to Malaysia.

dad always like to say, don come back here study, stay there study... blah blah blah... but heart is always terbalik. 

 

i'm getting bigger and dad is getting older. i'm really thankful that this year i could celebrate father's day with him. In the past, i spent most of days with him, and for now i even more appreciate my holidays back here in kb. holidays meant more, and have more value to me now. i understand that it's impossible to ask my parents to move to Aus, even i'm fucking rich or millionaire. i really hope i could stay beside my parents forever. this few weeks here, seeing them happier and not that bored when i'm around. bro gonna be in uk until Oct, and i going back to Aus soon, the house gonna be so quiet and empty again. T_T 

 

*sigh* this trip back to malaysia is kinda weird for me though. less outings like i used to be, even myself don feel like going out. just wanna be with them. even strange thoughts come to my mind, like: 要不就常常回来，要不就干脆不要回来，久久回来一次真的很辛苦。aihhhh, but both are impossible, come back often no need money ah huh?! never come back, u wanna die ah..? those who miss u will hit u die la!

 

life ain't easy. i know i should be getting stronger, but i feel i'm getting weaker towards this kind of situation. sometimes, realistic is cruel and truth hurts.

things will not always go as you wish.. hope i'll be ok.

going back this thursday.

 

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